don't ask~~~

woke up dis morn feelin nauseous. i dunno y n prob neither do u. didn't feel lyk eatin either. in fact, da sight of food was about as bad as ne of Jigsaw's traps at da tym. if mom was hea she'd prb call it me gettin cold n tell me 2 button up. i call it nature's hypocritical bull if it's tru. if i rly was cold den it'd make sense 4 me 2 eat food cuz den i'd hv a chance 2 produce heat, nt throw all dat energy away, one way or another.

so i decided 2 bake cookies instead. dat way dea'd actually b sum left 4 da family cuz no-one's gunna eat it all away. ok, so i was gaggin nt 2 touch da margarine, n da smell kinda haunted da kitchen, bt im nt dat intolerant, n i made sure i had sum hot tea beside me wif da hope dat it'd cover up sum of da smell, which it did rather decently. nw all dat's left 2 do is 2 wait 4 da oven 2 heat up. wonder hw dey'd turn out dis tym. yup, no recipe agen, completely frm scratch. dis tym's mre margarine, less flour, same evrythin else. mite'v added a lil less sugar...still kinda hesitant 2 pour a 2/3 c sugar. honestly, wen u jst look at da cup of sugar... all dat goes thru ur mind is: am i rly goin 2 eat all dat????

it snowed yesterday mornin, snowed dis morning, n it's prob gonna snow 2mrw. if dat doesn't say enuff about da temperature hea i dunno wat does. mayb: if i look outside dea's no sun peepin frm da clouds bt its completely blindin n da only thing dat'd shine mre is a unicorn. n dea's a strong urge in me 2 grab a pair of sunnies n put dem on... as if it wasnt dark enuff.

can't believe it's feb in a few days, bt can't wait 2 get back 2 a mre homely, familiar place. while sumhw no place'll eva quite replace hong kong as home, despite da short tym of my life i've lived dea, bt dis is close enuff. at least, a girl cant ask 4 mre in these situations. its strange hw iv bn hea 3 months n knw da main rds n still feel lyk a stranger. i hv no doubt it's cuz da lack of freedom. guess i miss nt bein able 2 walk out da door 4 a walk n all. cant get newea wifout tellin sum1 cuz evrybody wants 2 knw wea u go n wen dey knw dey'll want 2 go 2, n den if it's far dey'll make u take da car which i still can't drive properly cuz im a damn slow learner, esp wif sum1 scoldin worse than my brain does evry tym i make a mistake, n sumtyms evn b4 i make da damn mistake. hell, its nt lyk i evn came close 2 crashing.

ha, i hv my raving ability bak... i started out talkin 'bout home n moved on2 driving. guess dat's a sign 4 me 2 get bak 2 studyin n concentrate.