2 b or not 2 b...dat is da question.

i couldn't go on da net yesterday, but i did use da comp, so i thought i'd type an entry 4 da blog n post it 2day. well... here it goes...

i was typing an entry 4 dis blog about half an hr ago. it ended up being two pages long, but unfortunately, it wasn’t sumthing dat could go on da net. 4 one, i’d prbably get police hunting me down 4 destroying lil kids’ innocence n being politically incorrect n all dat jazz…
meh, neway…
i was thinking of starting poetically, like da original entry, n say sumthin bout da tranquillity of da nite n how i feel, but my mood hv jst changed dramatically. i’m jst in a obnoxious sorta mood rite now. well, i’m definitely not feeling poetically nehow.
there’s nothing but 2 spill my heart wen i’m in moods like this, but i don’t wanna spill my heart. i know everybody’s getting sick of me spilling my heart n whining n being so damn self-centered… so i guess dat’s it…4 now…

yup, dat was all 4 yesterday. i bet u'r all very surprised at how SHORT dat was~!!

neway...

yeah, i was in a very depressed n sober mood when i started da entry yesterday nite... it changed soon enough. now, i'm jst being me, me being undefinable, jst coz i'm whacked n my mood is worse than da weather newhere.

i only realised yesterday as i was doing da entry dat i've lost a lot of my calm poetic self. now, i'm not gonna do a repeat of yesterday nite's entry (da one dat's NOT posted here) n dwell on da past 2 much, but i used 2 b like da ocean swells (well...dat's a romantic way of putting it...of course in real life it's more realistic), jst going wif da flow, nothing shocking or hidden, calm. now i'm like a hurricane, all go-go, no break, chattering like there's no 2morrow. i know most of my friends r saying it's good n dey like it dat i'm talking, but it's exhausting n sumhow, it doesn't feel like me. evn if i feel like i've opened up n let everybody know everything about me, i feel like i'm wearing a mask.

oh shit, here i go being all philosophical again. DAMN. dat's wat i did yesterday...AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

okay, u know wat? i give up. i'm not posting nemore 2day. it jst makes me depressed. well, dat's kinda okay...i'm da same depressed or not... but it makes other ppl scared n freaked out, n i'm talking nonsense n nothing seems 2 b linked 2 nething else... blah...

so, at the end of the day, am i sane or insane????? u b da judge.

- the words of a lunatic (jst coz i'm not making ne sense at da moment)