um...da fat lady sang?

it's only bn 2 days since i applied 4 my jobs, n i hvnt had ne replies. yeah yeah i sounded soooo hopeful...bleh, wateva. thing is, i rly can't b stuffed. sure, it's pathetic hoverin lyk a lost soul, bt i cant wrk myself up worryin bout whether i gt sum part-tym job in blockbuster. cum on, it's blockbuster damn it. n as 4 a resume, i can openly tell evry1 dat im failin miserbly. lyk wat can i write on it huh? im nt in ne sport, im nt a whiz at *anything*. n my bro's tryin 2 push me in2 writin it, talkin bout hw hard it was 4 him n stuff. i'v seen his damn resume. it's all fancy n sleek yt simple, n yeah, he can pull it off. he's got scholarship, got both his masters n bachelor, n wif honors 2 i think. so i repeat, wat da hell do i put on mine? i swear he's jst rubbin it in. *sigh* i feel so bad hatin sum1 4 bein so nice, bt hvin nt seen my bro 4 a yr, i kinda can't help it x.x call me evl, i rly dun give.

so, since i hvnt been lukin 4 a job, wat hv i bn doin? surfin da net in da morn, knittin n watchin mvis in da evening. my hat's lukin pretty fine. im a lil confused as 2 hw im gunna finish it off tho, since my circular needles r way 2 long 2 do those last few rounds, bt i pulled it off last yr... daym, hw did i do it last yr? o, im sure ill figure sumthin out.

weather hea is actually a lot lyk bak at home - its all sunny one mo n da nxt its rainin. da couple of difs i spotted was dat its actually colder hea, bt deas a heck of a lot less wind. in fact, its hardly windy hea compared 2 wat im used 2. its great 'cause i can walk round in da house wif a t-shirt on n im still fine. okay, im snifflin vry slightly, bt as least im nt blowin my nose evry few minutes!

all in all, im pretty happy hea, spendin quality tym wif my brother, evn if i do hate him at tyms.

i was gunna enrol in my courses 4 nxt sem, bt none of dem r available til 15 dec, apparently cuz of outstandin results. so dat makes me wonder...hw did i gt mine?

if nethin nw pops up, i'll b sure 2 update hea... luv u all, miss u, wish u were hea.

its nt ova til da fat lady sings~

n so da hunt 4 my job continues. im hopin ill find a job. i dun wanna die jst yt.

watchi the noteboo rite nw, n b4 dis, a few good men, n swordfish. kewl mvis, jst got a bit annoyed tho cuz my bro already knw all d words n so he kept interruptin. *shrugs* o well.

results r out...got 3Bs, 1C+ (law) n C- (medsci). im nt sure if da medsci is an actual pass tho, wat wif science courses hvin pass both practical n theory, bt it sez dat i got 15 credits, so im hopin its a pass. of course, none of our results hv bn fully confirmed yt so dea's still rm 4 doubt.

hmm. i feel dis sudden urge 2 drive. sad 2 say tho dea's only my bro's oldsmobile stationwagon, n insane drivers goin 45mph... yeah, i dun think i trust these ppl ova hea. iv seen abt 3 close calls jst 2day, n we've only bn out 4 3 hrs. id trust californians mre than these ppls drivin netym x.x

o, n iv had my first thanksgiving eva. wif vry vry distant relatives 2. nehw, dat wasnt da pt. da pt was dat i had fun =) .

dats all dea is 4 nw i think. iv bn such a bum hea dea's rly nuffin 2 say.

oh wait! rite, i finished knittin da damn scarf n m startin on my hat. yay ^^ ~

NOW im done 4 da day.

coffee, work, coffee, work...

well, its a brand nw day~

ok, turns out my luggage paper wrk was in d car afta all so my bro got me worried ova nuffin. den agen, i think i sounded mre depressed than worried yesterday, evn tho in truth i was neither. ha!

still tryna find a damn job. its actually kinda hard 2 decide since i m gonna b hea 4 quite a while, i dun quite think cafe wrk wyl actually satisfy me... bt da coffee prob wyl!! neway, da pt is, retails n stuff is ez. u pretty much jst breeze in n go, i hv no exp, bt i want da job n im gonna b dedicated, n ur pretty much done. jumpin up frm dat wuld b secretaries n clerks n assistants, which wyl take mre persuasion. hv 2 b wylin 2 lrn n evrythin... n den u can go all da way 2 doin research n stuff...still being an assistant, bt a dif sort, which requires mre formality n seriousness than i lyk. on d other hand, i prob cant pull it off neway cuz rite nw i dun evn hv my clothes 2 pull dis stuff off wif, n i dun think id get vry far wif my bro's tux.

i shuld prob clean my bro's flat, bt iv got no idea wea 2 start. ill do his dishes n his bed tho. dats ez enuff :P damn i rly hv 2 gt my brain functionin agen... i cant chuck away nethin important...

its so frosty ova hea...it feels cold usually cuz of da wind. ova hea, its pure cold, n its so nice =) 4 once i can actually walk round hm wif a tshirt in winter ^^

ooh, had cookies n cream icecream last nite. my bro thort it was 2 swt, bt since im visitin he allowed me 2 choose. hehe. we still got a tub of rocky road n a tub of choc almond fudge 2 polish off afta da cookies n cream...cant w8!!!

jst lyk 2 point out agen dat plane meals r absolutely disgustin most of da tyms... its rly oily n wen ur cramped up in ur seat 4 lyk 5 hrs... u jst feel srsly sick. im glad on da way 2 sydney i decided 2 hv cereal... it sure calmed my stomach 4 da rest of the flight, alone wif da litres of orange juice i kept drinkin x.x

seems lyk i got result 4 biosci106 already. its a B. nt great, bt far frm failin. bt dis is nt da 1 im worried abt... damn im so nervous abt medsci...its lyk d ONLY 1 im actually gtin myself giddy abt. y o y da sudden change of heart wen i didnt care 2 much b4????? i feel lyk screaming...

neway, ill c yall lata, in da mean tym, b safe, dun get a random sun burn lyk i did, n keep me updated :P !!!

holz tym!!

so...

k, done my last exam. left abt an hr early 2 c res evl 3 bt turns out it was R16 n u hv 2 hv foto id wif DOB on it n kat, petal, n i were jst those ppl dat need 2 b IDed all da tym. dat jst wasnt kewl so we went 2 hv pizza at albert park instead ^^ - 2 veg cuz 1 was 4 dvl herself n 1 was 4 petal cuz she was vege dat day. kat n i ended up takin sum frm dem neway :P matt n mel stuck wif da meat. afta sum aimless detourin, kat n i FINALLY remembered hw we were gonna go iS2 n got sidetracked by petal n dvl, so pretty much 'guided' evry1 frm uni bak 2 atrium on elliot 2 hv sum ice/snow/icecream n chatted. mine was HUGE n was drippin ova da sides x.x i lukd lyk i a total fool tryin 2 eat da damn thing wifout spillin cuz it was doin dat wifout my help neway. urgh. at least it tasted rly gud. gotta crack up at petal n dvl tho...'its so weird, i'm eating snow!'

pretty much lived in Borders da rest of da wk... kept tryin 2 find a bk bt dey dun seem 2 hv it on da shelves yt so i culdnt get it.

monday i met up wif petal n it turned in2 a big disaster cuz peta l had an appointment in twn n i foolishly walked 2 her house in da damn rain which soaked my shoes 2 da max. it was gross. bt i managed 2 catch da bus n made it in tym, went along wif her 2 her appointment n den 2 jay's house... lingered round lyk sum sad ghost, watched Guess Who

fri was my own lil goin away party at kat's. once agen, i arrived wif soakin wet shoes, jst cuz my bad tymin. den agen, wuldnt hv mattered cuz it was drizzlin neway wen we walked up 2 gt sum fud (chips, dip, drinks, n icecream) n pizza (which is mre lyk real fud, evn if it is junk in practical sense...) n rented out res evil 2, stomp da yard, n transformers. head bak n started our mvi marathon. we kept mutterin n talkin thru all 3 mvis. mel was, by far, da quietest tho, n i kept sayin stuff wifout processin it thru my brains (pretty standard rly). oh, n petal kept answerin mine n kat's rhetorical questions. LOL.

neway, flew on sun mornin wif 2 hrs slp behind me. had a sml plane, so we had 2 share da screen n da mvi was hairspray, which i hv NO idea hw it got 2 b so popular cuz it lukd worse than high skewl musical. i ate my breky n promptly fell asleep 4 dat 3 hrs. change flights in syd aussie, n lets jst say air canada wasn't much beta. i kept wif my DS n my cell aka mp3. da fud was so oily n all. i fell aslp 4 about 30 minutes, bt it didnt matter cuz my butt was still rly sore (who's wuldnt b if dey sat 4 9 hrs?). transit in honlulu, n carried on my journey 4 another 5 hrs, dis tym worse dan b4 cuz it was all air turbulance n i only got 2 get up 2 go bathrm once, n dat was only cuz i was desperate n ignored da seat belts on sign since its bn up 4 da last 2 hrs x.x wen we finally landed i was feeling lyk i was gunna puke, nt cuz i was plane sick, bt cuz my hair was all oily n unbrushed, i was prob vry vry smelly, n i had 2 much fud n was a complete bum cuz u cant evn run on a plane. i prob lukd lyk a damn hobo cuz i was wearin my dark grey tshirt, n mom made me take her huge red jacket 4 her, n i was wearin my sunnies evn tho it wasnt 2 brite. my jeans n my shoes wuld'v passed as normal, bt wifout a smile 2 lite up my face, i lukd 2 darn serious 2 b normal. went 2 baggage claim n ended up dea 4 almost an hr...ne1 lyk 2 hazard a guess why??

my damn luggage are still all da way in AUSTRALIA!!!

o da joy of finding dat out! so blah blah blah wif da paper wrk... met my bro, who luks da same n we basically chatted 4 da nxt 2 hrs we were in da car. yup, mre sitting. i dun think my body wyl eva b da same. neway, i was so psyched cuz it feels so new, n hea it's almost lyk kelston cuz u got da mall on da main road, bt its quite quiet n its frosty n dry. if i had a key i wuld'v bn out 4 a run.

woke up dis morning n BAD news. u knw da paper wrk wif my luggage? yeah, i can't find it. hmm....uh oh. wat was in those 2 bags? duvet, 2 pillows (nice soft pillows~!!!) n all my clothes. x.x i think JoMing mitev contacted dem an c wat dey culd do tho, cuz about 5 min ago sum guy rang n asked me wat was inside those bags n it sounded lyk he was giving JoMing a ref numba n all, so... hopefully it'll b okay (dom starts singin "...and every little thing/ is gonna be alright..." except she doesn't knw if da wrds r rite)

but i'm still so psyched 2 b hea!!! i cant wait 2 gt bak hm, bt dis is almost lyk an adventure... nw lets c if i can make it a real adventure by gtin a job...

Now what have I been up to lately??

almost holz. jst guilty conscience hangin bout cuz still got 1 exam left. can't guarantee i'll pass dis one either *shrug*

i'm getting hooked on After School Nightmare, 'cept i culdn't find any further than vol4, n dey'r missing vol3. *sigh* missin jst 1 vol is missing a lot. nw i'm jst totally curious. can't wait til da whole series comes out...den i can finish it n c if its worth buyin, altho on d other hand, owning a whole series of manga is jst kewl on its own :P

bn raining da last 4 days or so, bt finally sun's startin 2 show...jst wen it's about 2 set... bah. well, at least its gunna b a bta day 2mrw. hvnt seen da trees nice n bushy 4 awhile, can't wait til dey start growin properly agen.

kat got exam 2mrw...n den it's me...

quit wrk, bt popped bak 2 help on a couple days ago. there were only manz n shirley x.x lucky i wasnt 2 exhausted... n chattin wif shirley was great fun. she's a real star. i'd b sad if real abuses her in ne way.

listenin 2 4 in da morning...it gts so depressing wen its been dreary and rainin... bah, culd b worse tho. at least it isn't my real life story. i enjoy da normality thanks, evn if it seems dull n means dat i hv nuffin 2 say 2 ne1 else =) . i jst pity da poor souls dat listens 2 da whole self-centred convo.

dude, jst saw nikki walkin past da window. wat coincidence...i jst *happened* 2 hv luked out da window. funny dat...

bn hvin weird as dreams lately. wondered wat dey mean, if dey mean nethin at all. plz jst dun tell me i turn out 2 b sum psycho-killer or dat i'd slpwalk off a balcony...dats jst plain freaky. luv strange dreams tho. at least dey give u sumthin 2 talk about. oh, n dat dey're totally open 4 interpretation :D

feel lyk hvin a pet, probably a collie. fat chance of dat happenin... *sigh*

hm...need sum inspiration b4 my attempt 2 draw agen... its rather unfortunate da whole fantasy thing jst dun quite seem 2 wrk. hang on...after school nightmare jst mite b sumthin i can wrk frm...

i think i shuld prob go home...mayb i wont b as distracted as i am nw :P n den i won't feel as guilty if i fail dis one. Ha~!

dude, iv done NOTHING 4 da past wk. o yeah, i studied (jst a lil...evn if its forced *sigh*) n had a bowl of peri-peri chips at nandos, i went dwn 2 borders n got hooked 2 after school nightmare, txtd my friends...

lol...didnt realised i saved dis, bt yeah, dis was dis mornin's.

hm, i feel lyk cryin, jst 2 feel normal. it has no common sense n no logic, bt rite nw i jst feel odd. mayb its da tyms iv seen ppl around me cry. den agen, it's nt lyk my tear ducts neva hv 2 wrk. im lyk waterwrks wen i go mvis. hm. well, neway, i was supposed 2 go hm wasnt i? *sigh*