so many stars... but one shines brighter than all

*sigh* I don't know what to do with my time any more. I feel like I've lost my ambition in life.
Though to be quite fair, I didn't really have any ambitions, I give my family that. They do have some reason to look down on me.
But I really don't know what to do. I feel lost. I don't want to feel lost any more. I want to do what I want to do, not having to think about my family ALL the time. I don't know how anee does it. I don't know how my bro does it. Although in my bro's case, I guess he's somewhat luckier.

Just looking up at the skies... I feel more lost than ever. But there's always a star that can lead you home. A pretty, twinkling star, the most beautiful of all. That's where my home is. Until I get there, I'll never be home.